i know for sure that this is all me, im the blame for this one. i mean, lets take a look back and maybe a step back, the words we dont say arent getting in the way, and even if were to complain i wouldnt, because its on me too. i wasnt looking for this in particular, but as always thats when it showed up. im a little closed minded towards this type of senerio, its just ive been here before, actually many times. i lost count, not literally, but to this extent, where your so close to tasting it? but its not always that close. times like these, loves to fail us. times like this, loves to bail on us more. its starting time, unfortunely were way past that, with no intentions on looking back, no intentions of really ever looking ahead. the stakes are high, just a little higher this time. no longer anymore amount of time, only a few words to say, and everything is gonna change. lets keep it. dont breathe this in right yet, i mean . . rushy a little.