whatthefuckisup?

lately, things hasn't been great. lately, things just hasn't been going my way. not trying to be selfish or anything, but fuck when it rains, it pours. im been scared lately, haven't felt the same for some time now. your actually eating away at my smiles. i need to feel something that's real. i just can't picture it, not yet. but i dont want to do this, but i guess sometimes you need too. who knows, this could be good. hm.