im never gonna come through, ive noticed that alot lately. whatever it is going on, i dont come through. no matter what the deal is, i just cant. maybe i dont have the heart to say it, and you did.

whatthefuckisup?

lately, things hasn't been great. lately, things just hasn't been going my way. not trying to be selfish or anything, but fuck when it rains, it pours. im been scared lately, haven't felt the same for some time now. your actually eating away at my smiles. i need to feel something that's real. i just can't picture it, not yet. but i dont want to do this, but i guess sometimes you need too. who knows, this could be good. hm.