take it?

im almost there. i havent taken the time to realize what i missed exactly. i wish it wasnt as bright. but then again everyone knows its gonna get harder and a lot darker. there's just some things you cant get back. lets set the deal? take it? then again, i wont be , as usual.

back it up

i swear, you could of picked a better ending for all this. dont hate the game , hate the player? i think i hate it both. is this the way it goes? no one sees it coming except you ? i have a lot of questions and not much time for answering before i get blocked out all together, i mean what are we suppose to do in the mean time? just act like nothing happened, like nothing ever went our way. . hold up, like nothing ever went YOUR way? ohh, i got it, we have to pretend that feelings were never put to place, and their to tell everyone the truth their still there. where did i think i was going with this? nor you. i think this happens more than it should, im always the one faking, maybe thats truely the way i have to go about it. its not me. it cant be me. its me.

sorry for the nights i cant remember . .

so, this is never getting old for me? or for anyone is this case. apparently its always our fault, that it rains at the most imperfect times, and when it do it rains hard. its always the most interesting times when it decides to fail us, one at a time. i should be use to this, and the worse part is . . im not. im always saying 'it takes time', im good at lying when it comes to this, no one will ever figure me out.

if you dont know me by now, you will never ever know me.